This is the poem dedicated to my grandma..
i just tried to explain her feeling for the two dayz--
1. wn she was at her last time
2.wn her soul come to our house again to see how much we love her..

i just tried to explain those feelings and her findings....


DAY 1

AAj meri mayit ka dinn tha.
ataki hui saanso ka dinn tha..
jo bahti jindagi mei
thae pathar atake huae
aaj unhe hata dene ka dinn tha....

sach ka dinn tha,
jhute parde se raaj uthane ka dinn tha..
kaun apna kaun paraya.
sab moh chod dene ka dinn tha..

aaj meri mayit ka dinn tha!!

sej se jo saje thae phool,
aaj woh bichona ban apnaane ka dinn tha
aakhiri shaan se jo nikle savari

aaj wo dinn tha..
aaj meri mayit ka dinn tha!!!

aankho ki lau ne jo liye thae sapne.
aaj unke pure hone ka dinn tha..
phoolo ki barsat mei..
aaj jo sikke thae khanak rahe
logo ka bhikari ban phir
ussi moh mei dubh jaane ka dinn tha...

aaj meri mayiat ka dinn tha!!!



DAY 2


udtae baadlo mei udaan bhare jab paya apne aap ko
chidiyo ki chachaht ke beech
mann kra dekh lu ek najar
apne parivaar ko..

ek pal aasma dekha
aur ek pal zameen
maa ka dil bhar aaya mera
socha ek najar daal hi lu
apne pote potiyon k beech..

aagya(permission) le mei uss om se
phir se niche thi laut aayi
rone ki dhawni(sound) sun(listen)
aankhein thi meri bhar aayi!

aapne bichone ke pass gayi toh
aapne vansh ko rota dekha
khud ko laga kitna anmol ratn mei..
jisne itne pyare vansh ko seecha..

par ektak najarie ruki meri..
jab phusphusahat sii lagi mujhe..
dekha hans(smiling) rahi thi bahuraniya meri..
meri maut k samman(pride) mei..

laga jaise unhe khushi ka tha koi manjar mil gaya..
meri aachiyon ko toh na jaana kisi ne..
meri daant ko sabne chuu liyya..

ekaek ek roshni se mein peeche beete dinno
mei thi laut ayi..
jab bani thi mein dulhan,
agle(next) pal apne ko maa ke roop mei sajai..

hanskar sweekar kiya meine unn bahate pathro ko.
anmol heera banaya unhe apni mamta ke aanchal do..

phir bhi raghuveer ki yeh kaise reet
jinhe seencha apne pyar se..
aaj woh iss bheed mei
mujhe koyale ki khaan bataye..

nau phoolo ko jo tha meine varksh(tree) banaya
aaj woh mujhe hi patjhad ka tha tuuntha dikh rahe
itni aasani se wo aapne farzz thae nibhaye jaa rhe..

mann ka mael(dirt) toh na dho sake..
duniya mei woh apna danka tha bajaye jaa rahe...

phir bhi chalke aansu mere,par aab woh dukh k thae..
jhuka aasman, pathi dharti..
phir na kabhi wapas laut aane k liye....

तेरा मेरा afsaana

kahe ankahe pal se mere,
kuch kehne ko toh apna hai,
dhoke bhari iss zindagi mei,
kuch khojane ko toh apna hai..

Ajab si iss duniya mei,
kya tera kya mera hain,
khote jaa rhe inn pallo mei,
meri saanso ka basera hain..

Hontho se nikle har shabd ne,
mujhe kuch yun ghera hain,
pal pal tutti inn saanso mei,
meri jaan ka savera hai..

kyn tutti iss zindagi mei,
sath na tera mera hain,
khicti teri saanse hai,
aur lagta mujhe
meri maut ka bulawa hain..

atak rahi dhadkno mei,
hamari yaadion ka basera hain..
kasam hain mujhe teri,
teri zindagi ke sath meri zindagi ka waasta hain..
naa toh
saaman bandh lo,
lambe safar ki tayari mei...
maut k iss safar mei meri jaan,,
tera mera hi afsaana hain!!!

kabhi kabhi kuch khalta hain

Confidence--Bole toh life ki sabse important strategy...jo har kisi ki life ki sabse bdi tradegy bhi hoti hai...
Jiske pass hain wo maalmaal aur jiske pass nahi hain wo kangal..
Life mei confidence kitna important hain yh shuru shurur mei samjh mei nahi aata aur jab tak aata hain tb tk wo time hota hain ki hum ekdum corner line par khade hote hain..
aab confidence aaye bhi toh kaiase...
mera yeh post likhne ka matlab sirf itna hain ki jo aaj mei feel kr rhi hun uss cheez se kisi aur ko gujarna na pade...
confidence is very much important part of life...ek aisi medicine jo aapke hardum kaam ayegi..no matter kya problem hain..
aur confidence aisa nhi hain ki born hota h...but it grews wd time and experience..
but yeh initial level par bhi hona chahiye..
taki aap ruko nahi..kahin bhi kasi bhi condition mei..
Independently work krna is most imp to build this!!!
today i am suffreing from this and trying to cope up wd this....kal aap bhi ho sakte hain..
so TAKE CARE!!!!!

Zindagi Tabadtodd

kahte hain ki zindagi bahut mushkilo se guzarti hai...har pal hum kisi na kisi wajah se aur kisi na kisi tarah zindagi mei fight kr rhe hote hain.....mei hamesha sochti thi ki kya kabhi mei karungi???
mei hemasha ma papa k sheltor mei rahi..par mei nanhi jaan kab tak bach pati..
mera bhi dinn aya fight karne ka....and meine ki and m doing still now..
So,
I salute to those people who used to travel in 764bus.....
peoples who have miss this oppurtunity to travel in this bus dont know what travel is all about...

I can Just summarized this into few Lines...


Saagar Ki Lahro mei..
Behte Panchi thae udh rhe..
bhaed bhav ki na koi jagah..
Ameer-Garib sab ek thaali k se thae lag rhe...

Tej Aandhi si chalti hain jab..
Sab usme saamate thae chal rahe..
ek k upar ek..
Hindustan ki janta kya hain..
uska roop tha dikhate chal rahe...

Hosh aane par pata chala

hosh aane par pata chala,
ki abb tak toh mei behosh thi...
paani k cheente lagne par ehsaas hua,
ki abb tak toh mei thi so rehi!

sote huae na ehsaas tha
ek nanhi si chubhan ka bhi..
jagte huae pata chala
ki kaanto ki kya bisaat thi....

hosh aane par pata chala..
ki abb tak mei behosh thi!!!


zindagi k palo ko..
bahati thi mei ja rahi...
kaanton ki raaho ko
phulo sa tha mei samajh rahi..


Apne kwabo ko toh
mei khud hi thi miitati ja rhi..
kaanto se hota hai khelna kya..
zindagi ka majaa tha mei bhulti ja rhi..

Hosh aane par pata chala..
Ki abb tak mei behosh thi!!!

about me....zaruri hai jaanna

nanhi si mei pari hun..
mapapa ki laadli hun..
choate choate hatho se,
sajati mei apni duniya badi hun..


sunder sa ehssas hai mann mei
har pal kuch naya sa karne ka vishwas hain..
choate choate kwabho se
saja mera sunder sansaar hain..

komal sa mann h mera..
naak par guasa kammal hain..
dil mei sbke liye pyar..
dosto mei meri jaan hain..

nanhi si mei pari,
nanhi si meri jaan hain..
sabke hontho par laau hansi.,
yehi meri zindagi ka khawab hain!!!!!

बारिश की पहली boond

बारिश की पहली बूँद,
एक अज्जीब सा एहसास दे गयी,
खुशबू उठती इस माटी की ,
पल भर में एक नन्ही सी खुशी दे गयी!

होठओ पर अब मेरे हलकी si मुस्कान थी,
दिल में नन्ही सी किलकारी की chalchalahat थी,
पल भर में उछल पडी मैं, jaise
मेरे पेरो में जान थी!!
में पगली bhool geyi,
mere toh yeh,
khawbo ki daastan thi!!!

बारिश की yeh nanhi boonde,
toh bas ek jhoota ehsaas thi!!!!